Then, Now


A different kind of before and after: there are 14 months and about 35 pounds between these two photos.⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣
We're quick to congratulate weight loss and critique gain, but my lower weight was caused by stress, anxiety, an abusive relationship, and an increasing practice of self criticism.⁣⁣⁣
My weight gain was caused by love.⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣
Love for myself.⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣
Love for cooking and sharing meals as a form of connection.⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣
Love for the sensuality of the female form.⁣⁣⁣
A growing love and appreciation for *my* body.⁣⁣⁣⁣
Love for my children - they're always watching.
And love for and from a man who has always encouraged me to eat what I want when I'm hungry, whether it's a juicy salad or a sumptuous slice of cake.⁣⁣⁣
On a more technical note, you can see here how my body accumulates and distributes fat in the same pattern regardless of size shifts. While weight changes sometimes cause me to make small adjustments to the styles I wear (belting at the waist vs not belting, for example), my image archetype has not changed.